i started on january 1st. i know what triggered it, some self loathing on dec 30th or 31st as i looked in the mirror or when i stood on that yuck inducing scale. but i think the thing that really drove it home, the thing that really made me realize that i have to do this now, that i can’t wait any longer, i can’t wait and just think about it any longer, is the fact that this july i’m going to be 40.

four. zero.

thinking about that has also led me to i realize that i have spent the last twenty years wishing i was on top of my health. i have spent twenty years wishing that i would get back in the water and swim like i did the first twenty years (well, the first 14 anyways). 14 years of that first twenty were spent swimming competitively, butterfly & long distance freestyle being my passions. i was good. i was fast. i was an athlete and i was really, really fit. then i left college and i stopped getting in the water. but i kept eating like i was still swimming. and although there have been times over the last twenty years that i’ve been fit and times when i lived my life and my weight wasn’t a battle i was waging in my mind, they were in fact, years that were too far apart.

i don’t want to spend the next twenty years fighting. i want to spend them doing everything that my heart desires, not thinking “what if”.

so i’m remodeling myself. inside & out.

the new earrings were just an added bonus. ;)

happy wednesday!
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i told you i had valentines on the brain and now it’s scattered all over my desk and in quite a few files on the computer. vintage love rocks.

happy monday!
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we’re on week two of winter break and i have to say, converting to the mac has been awesome. it’s also awesome for helping redirect the crankiness that consumed the littles yesterday (or anyday). from frog faces to buggy eyes it was the best 30 minutes ever. i’m trying to squeeze in every ounce of fun out of this last week so we’re off today to see a movie and then i’m taking them to go trade in some of their old books at the paperback book store (hoping to find 1 or 2 for me too. suggestions?).

i’m also trying to blog mwf. even if i don’t think i have anything to share/say. hoping the routine will get me back on a regular basis… once the littles are back in school i’m sure it’ll be alot easier. i’ve been piling up the craftyness and house diys and design work inspiration in pinterest and i am anxious to get my doing started after spending so many nights pinning all of the things i want to do.

what have you been up to / doing?

eta : just a quick note that my new kR vintage tabs kit is on sale at 2peas this week for 20% off, that makes it $1.60. seriously, a good deal.

happy wednesday!
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a little peek of the mixed media book i’m making for CHA with the product i designed. eeks!!

happy monday!
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